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Some treats for you on this Friday. Hoping to have some new ..

Some treats for you on this Friday. Hoping to have some new content very soon. I am trying to figure out how to get stuff made without injuring my shoulder further. I know you all are being super patient with me, but I am getting stir crazy from being laid up and I want to get busy LOL. I hate sitting around. Hopefully I will figure out a way to get some work done until I can get to the doctor and get some relief from this shoulder.

2022-01-07 17:42:08 +0000 UTC View Post

Here's something much more cheery for you wonderful peeps wh..

Here's something much more cheery for you wonderful peeps who listen to me and care. ❤

2022-01-07 00:09:55 +0000 UTC View Post

I am trying very hard not to be a downer or negative this ye..

I am trying very hard not to be a downer or negative this year, but some days I tell you what. If you don't want to read this I understand completely, but I need to vent very badly and right now I have no one. I am feeling so overwhelmed and frustrated. Over the course of my life I have always taken care of everyone around me, including my own mother, but in my times of need it seems I always have no one. Right now, that is once again true. My mother was never there for me during my greatest times of need... and I mean times when it was life or death, literally. If you've been reading My Story, you have learned some things about my mom and her lack of being an actual mother. For years I called her by her first name because I refused to allow her to have the label of "mother". You have to be an actual mother to earn that. She is having knee surgery next Tuesday and here's the kicker. Although never there for me even when I was literally near death, I am now all she has to take care of her for knee surgery. Her place has stairs and mine doesn't so she has to come stay with me. I am giving up my bedroom, my bed, etc, so she will be comfortable, all while dealing with a shoulder that is not only excruciatingly painful, but that also isn't working properly. I can't even lift the weight of my own arm. Not because of pain or weakness, but it just simply won't do it. Like it's paraly zed. It's not, but it kind of feels that way. So, here I am, bawling in my kitchen damn near having a panic attack because I have all this shit I need to do to get my place ready for her, yet when I needed her throughout my life she couldn't be bothered. And it is weighing on me very heavily and bothering me a great deal. I guess you guys get to be my diary of sorts. I need to vent his stuff to someone and right now I literally have no one. I won't burden my poor daughter with any of this as she has enough of her own stuff going on and she is pregnant. Anyway, I'm just feeling low and alone. Going through so much and doing it all alone as usual. I've never really had anyone so I should be used to it, but the older I get the more of a toll it takes on me. Thanks for listening if you even read this far. I will be ok. I will get it all figured out. But, for right now, I need a pity party and wish I had some physical help with all the shit that needs to be done and none of it is actually for me. It's all for the woman who brought me into this world and then made me fend for myself.

2022-01-06 17:27:41 +0000 UTC View Post

So far this year has started out pretty frustrating. I am do..

So far this year has started out pretty frustrating. I am doing my best to keep my spirits up, however. 73 days sober. I missed my second docs appointment 😩. This time wasn't my fault either (or docs), but damn this is getting frustrating. I have been managing the pain as best I can with lidocaine patches and ibuprofen along with my already prescribed pain meds which aren't strong enough for this level of pain. I know I need at least a cortisone shot. Pretty sure I have shoulder impingement. Ugh. I will do my best to start filming whatever I can. I'm tired of sitting around and I need a distraction anyway. I'll just be even slower than usual 😒 I will also have a new installment to My Story today or tomorrow. I missed truthful Tuesday due to this pain and other bullshit. I hope everyone is well! D.

2022-01-06 16:02:01 +0000 UTC View Post

Here's a selfie for you. So happy to be getting some relief ..

Here's a selfie for you. So happy to be getting some relief tomorrow and I'm extremely proud of myself for not turning to tequila to ease this excruciating pain I have been in. 😎

2022-01-04 18:56:29 +0000 UTC View Post

We will try this again. This time my appointment was schedul..

We will try this again. This time my appointment was scheduled by my nurse so I get to see doc tomorrow morning. He is completely booked literally months in advance (currently until April), so getting squeezed in is a miracle. He knows me well though and knows I don't complain unless it's very serious. Can't wait to get some relief. I can't take much more pain.

2022-01-04 17:18:22 +0000 UTC View Post

Well, my doctor's appt got canceled as he isn't in the offic..

Well, my doctor's appt got canceled as he isn't in the office today. And now I get to deal with my selfish, whiny mother all day. 🥴 I will let you all know what's going on when I know.

2022-01-03 16:13:22 +0000 UTC View Post

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2022-01-01 17:12:26 +0000 UTC View Post

Yup, still in bed partying it up. Happy New Year everyone. ..

Yup, still in bed partying it up. Happy New Year everyone. I sure hope 2022 is better and we all get some relief from all the bullshit. I mean personally and in every aspect. Be safe everyone.

2022-01-01 04:53:13 +0000 UTC View Post

FYI: OF has this fun feature called "restrict" and if you bo..

FYI: OF has this fun feature called "restrict" and if you bombard my inbox with message after message just because you see me online for a brief second, I can promise you I will use it.

2021-12-30 17:44:05 +0000 UTC View Post

Rub my shoulder? 😫🤔

Rub my shoulder? 😫🤔

2021-12-30 17:03:56 +0000 UTC View Post

What do my peeps have planned for NYE? Any resolutions? Per..

What do my peeps have planned for NYE? Any resolutions? Personally, I don't make resolutions. I just try to do better. I will be allowing my shoulder to heal and probably binge watching something on TV in my jammies 🤷‍♀️ Day 66 sober. I will put up another saga to my Big Reveal story as well. Christmas kept me ridiculously busy and then my mom's apartment had a carbon monoxide leak so I had to go save her once again. 🤦‍♀️ it's all good now though. Hope everyone is well. I'll be filming asap!

2021-12-30 15:40:38 +0000 UTC View Post

Hey guys. Still here and still sober but I injured my left s..

Hey guys. Still here and still sober but I injured my left shoulder and it has been excruciating. Trying to let it rest so I can get busy. 64 days sober today. 😎 Hope you all had a Merry Christmas.

2021-12-28 16:22:50 +0000 UTC View Post

Merry Christmas 🎄. We've all had a tough couple of years. I ..

Merry Christmas 🎄. We've all had a tough couple of years. I know this year for me has tested me beyond my limits, but I'm still here. I'm sober 61 days and that's enough. May you all be blessed. ❤

2021-12-25 16:15:26 +0000 UTC View Post

This went a tad viral on TT 🤓

2021-12-24 02:53:46 +0000 UTC View Post

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2021-12-23 03:29:43 +0000 UTC View Post

Figuring out your next move when you're sober and have all t..

Figuring out your next move when you're sober and have all this time and good health 🤔

2021-12-22 17:41:49 +0000 UTC View Post

The color came through much better in this one.

The color came through much better in this one.

2021-12-22 15:47:07 +0000 UTC View Post

Naughty and nice 🎄❤

2021-12-22 15:46:20 +0000 UTC View Post

I've become one with my demon. 🔥❤😈

I've become one with my demon. 🔥❤😈

2021-12-21 20:01:24 +0000 UTC View Post

Yup. I went there and I don't care.

2021-12-21 18:53:59 +0000 UTC View Post

Just a sneak peek 😉

Just a sneak peek 😉

2021-12-20 17:10:28 +0000 UTC View Post

Customs FAQ - PLEASE READ BEFORE MESSAGING ME. THANKS. Cust..

Customs FAQ - PLEASE READ BEFORE MESSAGING ME. THANKS. Customs are $13 per minute with a five minute minimum (to start). Payment must be received before you are added to the queue. Costumes and elaborate ideas cost more. Customs take a MINIMUM of 4 weeks, but much, much longer at times like this when I'm EXTREMELY backlogged. Use of a name is $50 extra. ALL customs are resold, no exceptions. Exclusivity can be purchased and STARTS at $500. Please send me your FULL idea in ONE message so that i can review it and subsequently keep everything organized. There are a lot of you 😏😘 I have to approve all custom ideas before moving forward. DO NOT just send me money and say "I want this and here's your money" because you won't receive a custom. I do not approve all ideas. I accept payment through here as a tip, or you can pay me through other sources. If you wish to utilize other sources, we can discuss that in messages. Customs take weeks, people. WEEKS. I say weeks without a number in front of it because each custom takes a different amount of time. Some are fairly simple and can only take a day to prep, film and edit. Others are much more complex with certain outfits/costumes/props, etc and can take day(S) to create. DO NOT continually message me about how your video is coming along or any variation thereof. I am EXTREMELY busy and you will only be taking time away from me filming customs and I won't answer you. If I receive enough of those backhanded "I want my video" messages, I will restrict you and possibly block you. ABSOLUTELY NO REFUNDS WILL BE GIVEN. I have dozens of customs in my queue. DOZENS. If you order a custom, you must take that into consideration. I film in order of payment received, so yes, you gave me such and such an amount a month ago. That just means you are in line with everyone else who is PATIENTLY waiting for me to get to theirs. Also, I am a human being with a family and a life and sometimes extenuating circumstances can briefly slow me down. I don't just throw up a camera and do my thing and *poof* your custom is done. I have to get myself ready, my studio/scene ready, figure out which order I may need to film the idea in, set up, tear down, set up, tear down, set up, tear down, film, re-film, film, re-film, etc etc etc etc etc etc etc. It is a MULTI PROCESS endeavor for each and every one of your videos. You are ONE person waiting on ONE thing whereas I am ONE person with THOUSANDS waiting on THOUSANDS of things. I'm a one woman show. I do everything myself. You are not the only one waiting. I will get to your custom when I get to it and I will create it with the same level of professionalism that I create every single other video I make. I really do enjoy making customs so let's all just understand one another and I can continue doing what I do best 👌 ❤ Thanks.

2021-12-16 16:36:23 +0000 UTC View Post

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