Hey guys. I'm ok, for those of you who saw yesterday's post on my social media. For those of you who haven't, I'll post it here.
I'm generally ok, just going through a tough time and started realizing that nobody ever shares that side of life. I should say people rarely show it. I've seen a few, but it's usually small accounts with minimal views, which just proves my point that nobody wants to see sad fucks.
I have my ups and downs and I'm getting through it. Still sober -- day 43 today. I did have a moment of wanting a drin k last night simply because i wanted the pain to stop, but I know that would only make it worse and I'm not going to undo all my hard work. 43 days worth of hard work.
Hope you all are well.
I will have a truthful Tuesday post up later.
It's thirsty Thursday y'all. Here's a little treat for ya. Day 38 sober AF and I'm working hard at getting myself camera ready for some new content! I can't wait to get back to filming and doing what I do best! Hope everyone has a great day!
I'm feeling generous this Humps Day. Will have brand new pics for you this week! My poll on IG says that lingerie wins out over bikinis and no tan lines wins out over tan lines. Also, videos win over images, but I was pretty sure that was the case ;)
Holiday boobies! Let's just take a minute to appreciate these holiday and comfort food fed boobies. These are free range, carb fed boobs. They will begin shrinking as I stop eating to compensate for not drinking and work on getting healthier and back in shape. 😘👀❤ Day 35 (5 weeks) sober AF! Can you guess my current size???
Happy Sunday y'all! Day 34 sober AF for me. I am excited for this coming week as I have a couple videos planned to film and will be getting a lot accomplished. I'm glad the holiday is over for now, as much as I enjoy them they are a lot of work LOL.
I hope everyone is well and I will have much more coming up!
Much love and respect
The holidays always make me sad for reasons you will learn about in my reveal story. I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving and those of you who don't celebrate it had a wonderful day. I'm sad and numb. Usually when I feel this way I would drink to self medicate. Today I just laid around and felt it. Unfortunately.
Don't worry. Still sober AF. 31 days today.
Last week I was unable to get to my Truthful Tuesday post, but I will have one for you tomorrow for sure. I am working on the next segment now. I hope everyone has a great week!
Happy MILF Monday y'all! Day 28 sober AF and feeling my best EVER! Also was able to get some hormone replacement for my menopause and although it has made me extremely achy while my body adjusts, it is also giving me energy and making me feel amazing in every other way!
Here's another throwback for now. This is from one of my favorite videos!
Speaking of videos, I have a very busy week again this week due to the Thanksgiving holiday and being with family, but I will be getting busy working on those customs (my TOP priority now) and I will also have a special treat for my 30th day of sobriety! I haven't been sober this long in over three years y'all!
I have so much energy and am so genuinely happy right now that it doesn't even seem real to me. I am absolutely blessed.
I owe you all so much gratitude for being with me and supporting me the way you do! Without all of you I am positive I would not have made it this far. You have kept me from feeling alone and given me the strength and the willpower to continue being strong and staying the course. Thank you all so very much from the bottom of my healthy, happy heart!
Much love and respect!
Here's a special treat for y'all while you wait for me to heal more. Have a wonderful HUMPS day ❤ Yes, this is current. Taken this morning on day 23 sober af. ☺
Tit Worship -
Once again, all it takes is just a peek of my cleavage and you're hard as a rock. I can see that bulge inside your pants just aching to come out and play. I bet you want me to open my blouse just a little bit more so you can see my big, perfect tits. Look at you getting harder and harder... I'm not quite sure I want to open my blouse yet. I rather like teasing you and making you work for it. Maybe you should take your cock out of its constraints and start stroking it for me. If I can watch you do that, then it will tempt me to bring them out. I like the way you stroke your cock for me. My titties like the way you stroke your cock too. You can go a little faster, but not too fast, I want you to last. I'm going to tease and taunt you until the very end. Now as I start to open my blouse you can go faster, and then as I show you each one you can go faster yet, until finally they are both exposed and you cum all over them.
My DD's will be waiting for next time.
Includes: Tit Worship, Big Tits, Cleavage, Masturbation Instruction, JOI, Jerk Off Instruction
Got too busy yesterday and didn't get a chance to edit and post that video, but it's in editing now and will be up shortly.
Day 23 Sober AF and feeling great aside from menopause LOL.
I hope everyone is well. I'm absolutely slammed with shit to do now that I'm sober and getting everything repaired. Plus, I still have that succubus needy mother I've mentioned and she thinks the world revolves around her and her needs to this is fun.
Either way, I will be staying sober no matter what! Aside from her needy ass, too many very very good things are happening in my life since being sober and I will NOT jeapordize any of it.
Have a great day y'all. I'll be getting to filming as soon as I get my studio in shape.
Much love and respect.
A throwback to another sober time in my life when I was killing it just like I am now. 2013. Working my way back and feeling better than ever! 21 days sober AF today and feeling better and better each day :)
Day 20 SOBER AF Y'ALL!!
I feel fucking amazing 👏
Here's a sexxxxy af throwback to celebrate! Going to do some much needed self care today and start getting myself camera ready again. I'm excited to get back to it. New ideas for images have been going through my head all last night and today.
Have a blessed Sunday 🙌 😇 🙏
Day 19 sober AF, my peeps!! I am finally loving myself again and starting to find some peace.
Tomorrow is day 20! Wow. So proud ❤💯
Here's another throwback to get you by until I get myself back together ❤
Fun Fact Friday -
I know I said I would post about my big reveal story every Tuesday, but today I am really struggling with a lot and I figured maybe getting some stuff off my chest might help.
Here's a fun fact about part of my big reveal story that I will be unveiling over the course of the months to come:
I am telling my story in the hopes that I can help others. It took me almost 24 years to realize that what happened to me was actually a nervous breakdown. I always knew it was stress that had caused it, but I just never came to grips with that term "nervous breakdown" like I did today.
Subsequently, whenever I would feel any kind of stress, all I wanted to do was medicate -- and that was always in the form of drugs and alcohol. Mostly alcohol, that's my big one. I have a lot of different triggers from childhood traumas to relationship traumas, etc, and they start the nerves ablaze and then I immediately go to the unhealthy coping mechanisms.
Today, as I came to that huge realization, I am struggling hard with a lot of different big issues all at once and I caught myself searching for some outside way to cope. I now understand that I need to learn to cope without external things like other people or substances. All of those things can be taken away at any time. The real way to cope is to learn how to quiet my mind and heal my own heart and soul and that led me back to God.
My mom was never very religious, in fact she mocked it most of my life so I didn't learn the benefits of believing in something bigger than yourself. I didn't learn the value of Faith.
Then when I had my nervous breakdown and it didn't end well, I thought "well, if there is this supposed God, why would He allow this to happen to me?"
Today, I realized that I allowed it to happen to me and God was actually saving me.
I have recently been returning to God and Faith. I'm trying to "let go, let God" and put my Faith and my darkest moments in His hands so that I may cope in a healthy way and not only stay sober, but stay alive. Literally.
I am actually enjoying this clarity and revelation, but I wish the struggles didn't have to be so damn hard.
Thank you all for being here with me on this difficult journey and I hope that I am able to also help even one other person.
Much love and respect.
Good Morning, y'all. Any videos that are missing from my collection here? I have been trying to go through and make sure I re-added all of the videos that got taken down by OF previously, but maybe there's something I missed or a favorite of someone's that's not here. Just let me know. Thanks!
Here you go! First pic since getting sober. 17 days down and I feel amazing despite my sadness and everything else. Menopause sucks lol. But, I got this. 💪❤
Today was a huge turning point for me. I suddenly realized my worth and everything changed in my mind. The sobriety is really starting to kick in. I am feeling so good to be back to me.
I still have a ways to go and today is just one day. I have no idea how I will feel tomorrow, but today, I feel great.
I will not let anything bring me back down again. Ever.
Since I began my story telling on a Tuesday, it's only fitting that from now on that will be the day I will continue the story. These posts can be found under the labels "My Truth" and "Truthful Tuesday". Those labels are designated ONLY for my big reveal story.
So, look forward to every Tuesday for that! Your mind will be blown.
October 2018. Shining bright and looking good. I am on my way back. Years of poison doesn't leave overnight, or even in 16 days, but I can see and feel my light returning and it feels great.
Day 16 sober AF and that will never change.
