Movie watchin and laundry foldin
Movie watchin and laundry foldin
2023-03-20 04:55:03 +0000 UTC View Post
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I’m on a monotones kick lately. I think because of my mood. ..
I’m on a monotones kick lately. I think because of my mood. Which isn’t bad…it’s just a little grey.
2023-03-18 06:29:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Well geesh now I’m having trouble with words so there will b..
Well geesh now I’m having trouble with words so there will be more pictures lol. Eventually one day, there will be balance haha
2023-03-17 16:32:31 +0000 UTC View Post
Edited to add to this: I’m sorry if my low mood worried you...
Edited to add to this: I’m sorry if my low mood worried you. My moods cycle rather frequently through low and high, and while not “typical” I am managing them much better than ever before. I post with the captions I do for transparency and honestly, solidarity for anyone else feeling down that day. But not for advice. You’re free to give it but I don’t really need it, and it doesn’t really help. I’ll try to touch more on why in my next vid 😊
****I tried to take a sexy pic but honestly I am strugggggggling right now. Ugh what the heck. I honestly can’t really say what’s happening or happened. I just…literally hate every photo I take of myself right now. I know I’m always a little up and down but the last few days have been pretty down. I just had been at a point where I was feeling quite secure and comfortable with myself, and I can’t even tell when that shifted to my current state but geesh. I’m not impressed with my attitude and I guess I should work on cheering myself up.
Holy moly I feel like this last week and a half was entirely..
Holy moly I feel like this last week and a half was entirely a dream lol. I experienced a similar situation after a very busy five days up in northern Manitoba. By the end of it, I was so wired and overflowing with experiences and thoughts and memories that I couldn’t calm down for like a week lol. I often feel this way for a day or so after being on a set as well. I couldn’t sleep at all last night and have been on the go all day today. I did end up getting a last minute therapy session this evening and I’m glad to have had that time to empty some of my thoughts. I try to keep the more problematic things to the professional, and the better stuff for my videos here lol. For example in this session it was noted that I reacted to the thought of my own demise VERY casually. Even though I am actively pursuing to live the biggest life I can, there’s never been a fear of death. I’ve been aware of my own mortality for quite some time now ( I remember being car seat aged, and taken to the emergency room in rush hour traffic by my auntie while I was hacking on a chicken bone). Some people live because they are afraid of death. Some people die because they are afraid of life. But being the way I am, which is fearless, neither the case really applied and I sort of view life and death with indifference. I’ll do as good as I can in whichever state I currently find myself. Being fearless is not a brag. People often ask how I can camp and explore alone, I must be so brave. But I try to explain in a way I hope isn’t sounding overconfident or condescending. I grew up in this lifestyle, and I am confident in my skills, and aware of my weaknesses. I am also bipolar lol. The lack of fear is a personality flaw. It’s only brave if you feel scared and do it anyway, it’s not brave if you’re just standing up against nothing that bothers you because you can’t mentally connect with that emotion. It actually leads to quite dumb choices sometimes lol. But I have also been struggling with my period the last day and feeling quite painful and contemplative. I am looking forward to posting a video tomorrow and breaking down how everything went on my trip. Have a great sleep 💤
2023-03-10 06:03:16 +0000 UTC View Post
The best day. Skied with my 73 year old uncle and I am his r..
The best day. Skied with my 73 year old uncle and I am his reversed age. The video is blurry but that’s me lol! I am going to be sore tomorrow.
2023-03-06 05:47:41 +0000 UTC View Post
I was able to be a tiny bit naked today and catch some sun r..
I was able to be a tiny bit naked today and catch some sun rays on my skin. I’m sleeping tonight in the house of the town I spent my teenager years. I almost called up an old friend to hang out at the pub but my sister took me on a cruise up the mountain and we had the best talk. I’m so grateful that I’m having this time visiting so many important people to me 💕
2023-03-04 08:18:52 +0000 UTC View PostI’m not really sure how this post will end up….I usually rec..
I’m not really sure how this post will end up….I usually record myself and talk through what’s on my mind but I can’t be noisy here so I guess typing will have do for tonight. I enjoyed my time in Calgary SO MUCH. It was all around a great time and seeing some people that I adore a lot and getting to hang out was a really huge benefit for my mind. Sometimes you get used to being without certain people, but when you get together again you question why the distance now. The long and short answer is life. Once the Calgary portion of my trip was done, I headed into the mountains as a back seat passenger in a car for 4 hours of 90s hits playing. It was luxurious. I’m never not the driver so it was a good change of pace. I have been very anxious about seeing my gramma, and causing her worry over my weight. When I walked in the concern was instant. She ain’t happy that’s for sure and I’ll be back at the doctor when I arrive home to bring it up again. I’ve been making excuses not to go, and putting it off for months and months. I’m not sure why. But I promised and I will.
2023-03-02 06:32:46 +0000 UTC View Post
This is all I have good to show from the last couple of days..
This is all I have good to show from the last couple of days. Except the last pic. That’s a bad one. I’m feeling down, I’m stressed out about my upcoming trip and have so many things to do before I go. I am excited and but pre trip anxiety always gets me!
2023-02-24 04:49:39 +0000 UTC View Post
Good morning from the middle of the lake. -31°c
Good morning from the middle of the lake. -31°c
2023-02-21 17:35:50 +0000 UTC View PostI took a few more minutes of video during the movie. Then to..
I took a few more minutes of video during the movie. Then tossed and turned until 4am and now I am exhausted 🥱
2023-02-19 20:58:28 +0000 UTC View Post