so after this jungle 🪴 that I sleep under fell on me twice l..

so after this jungle 🪴 that I sleep under fell on me twice last night, I went from thinking the flat is haunted to realising I haven’t taken moments to be grateful lately 🙏🏼 there was some 1am palo santo cleansing, followed by a reminder that energy is always around us & a realisation that I have been emanating quite a lot of bad one lately in between that leap of thoughts 😅 I have a lot of things to be grateful for and I’m usually quite good at channeling that gratitude, but in between having to say goodbye to my family again & the desperation to secure a remote position with a higher salary that would allow me not to be anchored to one geographical position, my field of vision got clouded and I found myself stuck 😢 However, I decided to start working towards these changes that I want to see in life, and instead of panicking about where to even start, as I’ve been doing for the past few days, I will begin slowly, with opening some windows and letting fresh air in (I only realised yesterday I haven’t done this when I got back) and with tackling small things that have seemed incredibly difficult since I got back, like washing my hair and doing my laundry ☺️ But at the same time, also try not to lose sight of everything already so amazing that I have in my life, and instead of wishing for something else, just working on blossoming the value of what already is. I know a lot of you are going through your own struggles and rough patches so I’m sending you lots and lots of positive thoughts, wherever you may be in the world 🥰 thank you for giving me your time and effort, despite having your own heaviness to look after. I appreciate you enormously ❤️ **P.S.:** in other news, Onlyfans has decided to suspend their October ban. Although « suspend » doesn’t give enough clarity and is not remotely good enough considering the chaos caused and the loss it brought to many creators, at least I’m happy that for now - no one will lose access to any of my content acquired over the time. **P.P.S.:** I finally got a douche 💦 so hopefully my 🍑 training can resume soon! 🤩 I’m also looking for a small & cute plug, so happy to take recommendations, and as always - accept gifts 😇 (not metal and not with a gem at the end; preferably glass ones with some form of sculpture/mould at the end)