hi loves! so a while ago, I asked if it’d be ok to make a sa..

hi loves! so a while ago, I asked if it’d be ok to make a sappy post. I figured the end of the year — especially a year like this — would be as good a time as any! (if personal posts aren’t your thing and you’re just here for titties, you may wanna skip this one) I just want to say thank you all SO much for being here🖤 it truly does make me so happy to get to know you all and make content for you:) I’m very glad to have a little corner of the internet that’s so supportive. and also making content here has encouraged me to work through some things, and I feel like I’ve made achievements I never thought were possible! you all have helped me so much to feel more confident and better about my body and its abilities💜 it’s such a 180 from how I used to see myself and my body. due to some stuff I won’t get into, I couldn’t have sex really until about 3 yrs ago. I had negative emotional associations with sex and persistent pain problems that made any sort of penetration absolutely unbearable. sex felt like knives, and even a q-tip would make me anxious and cry. for most of my adult life, I just thought my body was broken and accepted that I would never have a healthy sex life. I was mad at my body for years, and I honestly hated it for a while because I felt like it was working against me and was defective. I made so many attempts to fix it, both solo and with supportive partners, but with such limited success, I really thought I was doomed to sad, excruciating 5-minute attempts at missionary for life. I resented my body so much that even when things sex got better, the confidence still didn’t catch up for a while. also, my ability to be penetrated was limited. before OF, I was at a point where I could finally have pleasurable sex, but I still couldn’t take a finger (even my own) or a toy. but then when I made OF and people started requesting that type of content, I thought might as well work on it! I didn’t have the courage or motivation to work on those things on my own. I just kind of thought they wouldn’t be in the cards for me, and that was that. so then once I’d been doing OF a few months and got more and more comfortable in my own skin, I was genuinely ~amazed~ and how in control I felt of my body! I sent out a video a few weeks ago of my first time fingering myself, and that’s seriously something I never thought could happen. when I bought some dildos at your request, I was nervous I wouldn’t even be able to use them, but then when they slipped right in, I was shocked!! not only was there no pain, but it actually felt GOOD 🖤 I know it doesn’t seem like a lot to have fingering or sticking dildos in count as progress, but it really means a lot to me! if someone had told me 3 yrs ago I would be able to have sex regularly with no pain, I wouldn’t have believed them. if they told me I’d be running an OnlyFans page and feeling so confident that I was sharing this stuff with others, I’d probably have laughed my tiny little ass off hahah. your support and your kindness has helped me with these issues honestly more than anything! thanks to you, I’m finally comfortable in my own skin. I’m grateful every day for you all, and I look forward to continuing to make more content and explore new things in 2021! 🖤🖤🖤🖤