ok super inebriated thoughts here... but creating on OF rea..

ok super inebriated thoughts here... but creating on OF really makes you evaluate your appearance. at first, when you start being vulnerable and sharing your body with the world, you begin scrutinizing your features and comparing them to others’. as you promote, you notice trends of what seems to “do well,” the ideal body type. at this point, you can be susceptible to embracing these standards and being critical of your own “too X” this and “not Y enough” that. but then a bit later, you’re surprised when you realize that a ton of people truly treasure the “imperfect” features. if rule 34 states that if it exists, there’s porn of it, then I’d take it a step further: if it’s an insecurity someone has, then there’s is guaranteed to be an entire subreddit dedicated to adoring it. it can honestly really shift your mindset and actually work to undo the years of the unhealthy self image that have grown up with you. still, you’re nervous to share these features, even with people who’ve expressed a specific interest in you. there’s still doubt because you worry, what if (especially now that people are actually paying for that reveal) they’re disappointed? but then the response you receive when you finally do it is so overwhelmingly encouraging and positive. it’s honestly a bit shocking initially, but then you realize that each day, you’re starting to appreciate something else about yourself. you kind of can’t believe how therapeutic and self-loving this platform can be. and it’s sad how this place that fosters this newfound confidence in so many users is condemned in a number of social circles. outsiders who don’t understand it can dismiss it as objectification, but it’s genuinely made you feel more comfortable in your body than you could have ever imagined. I think maybe one reason people gravitate towards “imperfections” is because they stand out. The “more ideal” features someone has don’t compensate for the imperfect ones. Rather, the supposedly imperfect ones amplify how much you are really attracted to the whole of a person — you realize that lack of society’s looks of choice is not actually a dealbreaker. society had kinda tricked you into fearing that subconsciously. maybe even consciously at points. the amount of connection you feel with that person (whether love or intense attraction) erases the value you place on those beauty standards. so then you associate imperfection with some form of love. it’s really beautiful to me that this type of vulnerable expression can lead you to this kind of unexpected growth and confidence. I’m truly grateful to everyone sharing this experience 🖤