Man oh man these past 2 days have been super rough. I was do..
Added 2021-11-12 22:20:16 +0000 UTCMan oh man these past 2 days have been super rough. I was doing better all of last week, finally! I was so productive and got so much done. And then slowly this week, it's like the anxiety just crept back in. I felt a lil off on Monday, felt better Tuesday and Wednesday though. And then SMACK Thursday, yesterday, I woke up crying. With so much damn anxiety. Everything over stimulating. Even just my partner trying to comfort me and touch me felt like too much. I knew there would be set backs in how I feel. And that healing isn't linear. But man, I did not expect it to really slingshot me around with how I'm feeling. Today was a rough start, I laid in bed when I woke up and spent a long while crying and trying to just breath. It was like I couldn't catch my breath. I couldn't tell you exactly why I was crying or give you specific reason, other then anxiety and just feeling like shit. Im still being transparent, so if you read through all this thank you 💗 and if you relate to anything I just said, my heart goes out to you. You're not alone though. And there are better days. The rough ones suck. So much. But there is much damn light still left to experience and see. So much sparkle left to discover. So im going to try my damndest to look forward to that, and to look forward to seeing you all online tonight. But im sending big giant hugs to everyone today, cuz I need them, and maybe you do too 💛
