today I woke up in a terrible mood, full of anxiety about th..
Added 2024-08-07 08:35:44 +0000 UTCtoday I woke up in a terrible mood, full of anxiety about the future, disgusting, gnawing sadness about the fact that no one needs my paintings...
Every day I work, draw, come up with new ideas, but it hardly pays off. It really makes me very anxious.
I knew that this moment would come, my calm phase would be replaced by an anxious one. And then depression would set in.
Usually the heaviest peak occurs in November - December.
I feel so useless, unnecessary, ungrateful, helpless, pathetic...
Today, according to the plan, I will make a new collage, shoot a video reels, edit it, prepare the material, and make posts on other social networks, sort out my ะตmail, answer messages.
I have absolutely no strength, I feel like a piece of sh*tโฆ I am soaked in anxiety from head to toe...
I think I'll do some meditation, maybe it will help me calm down and start the dayโฆ
P.S This is my new collage based on Howard Phillips Lovecraft. Do you like collage with red chair or brown?
