This is why I’m disabled- fibromyalgia. Tho I would amend th..
Added 2021-08-23 20:09:43 +0000 UTCThis is why I’m disabled- fibromyalgia. Tho I would amend that statement. It’s more like an exorcism of your body trying to get rid of you. 🤮
Ever had a scratch that you try to ignore but couldn’t? And it feels like your whole body is screaming at you to scratch it? That’s fibromyalgia. That’s just my normal day to day life at a level 3/10 on the pain scale. Good days, I feel like I can fly. Bad days, there’s no other way to explain it other than to say “I just can’t” can’t what? Cant everything, can’t lift my body up, can’t take care of myself. Sometimes it feels like I’m - hung over, strung out, and suffering from sleep deprivation, all at the same time- that takes 3 days recovery. It’s no surprise that I tried to drink myself to death.
The pain never stops. Even the great days. There’s this echo of the nerves being lit up. The anxiety, depression, I can’t work a normal job. I’ve tried 4 jobs since the onset in 2015. Lots of hour long panic attacks in bathrooms thinking I’m gonna be sick. And I can’t smoke weed at work, I know that at some point during the day I will start to feel sick. I love to work, I get a rush from it or knowing I did a good job seeing my finished product at the end of of the day. I’ve even tried stripping since it’s “do what you will to get thru the shift” place and I can go whenever. Buuut I have an ACL tear so that really makes the heels hard to wear snd dance.
This is my life, it sucks. I average 3 dr appts a week. Man I’m tired
