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how was your week? Mine was surprisingly….really good. I had..

Added 2020-08-09 18:35:02 +0000 UTC

how was your week? Mine was surprisingly….really good. I had an amazing week. . . . . . Since the trip last weekend, I’ve found it easier to recognize my thoughts and change my behavior. For example, instead of letting my anxiety control my first day back on stream, I was able to see that the anxiety was temporary. And I logged on with ease and watched as my anxiety lifted as soon as I got online. I’ve been able to stay present in the moment a lot better, which is saying something for me! I’ve also adapted a list like approach to my work. Hour by hour. 9am I do xyz. Before, I just had a long ass to do list and tried to get as many things completed as possible! I’d skip out on me time and easily get overwhelmed or lost in a project. This way has been much easier, all it takes is me sitting down once a week to write my schedule out for the coming week! HOW WOULDA THOUGHT I’m also meeting another model this month who I’ve looked up to for awhile. We’re going to try and bring my photoshoot idea to life! I’m going to shoot and direct the entire thing! I’m SUPER pumped! This will be my first ever time behind the camera. And Disco and gman both bought me some badass lenses without really knowing that this set was happening. So the timing of this was super…..spooky. but also magical :) I’m also going to be renting a really badass lens for the shoot. Like a $2k lens :D :D :D I’m really excited. Not just because I’ll be able to challenge myself creativity but because FRIENDS! Friends, you guys. Friends who understand what it’s like. Who share the exact same beliefs. Ugh, it’s going to be so nice. A breath of fresh air. OH! And joey and I are starting the carnivore diet today!!! I’m really excited to do it with someone, I’ve been doing it alone and I’ve felt super unmotivated, cheating every other day so I’m excited to stick with it :) cant wait for this experiment joey <3 Anyways, I hope this productivity stays with me this upcoming week! How was your week?