I don't know what happened to my spirit. It was somewhere be..
Added 2024-01-08 10:23:13 +0000 UTCI don't know what happened to my spirit. It was somewhere before I turned 18 but my spirit of trying new things and being literally healthy went out the window. And on the last couple of months I gained 5kg. No... It isn't noticable... Because the fat in my body is stupidly well distributed but still... It's so fucking much for someone that haven't changed weight in 10 years. I used to do so much cool stuff.. and I still want too. But I just can't do it alone. So today .. and once again 🤡 I am starting something semi-new. I am going to a pole dance class alone. No friends, zero known people. And for God sake I hope I feel welcomed and safe there. I can't do exercise alone for the love of god. In the gym is because I don't want a random dude come to me. Which happened even when I was with a guy friend lol. So alone it you'll definitely happen. I can do to krav maga because on the 1st class I attacked a guys junk (it was a part of the exercise but still???) 🤡 I can't go swimming because my hair has paint so it would literally damage the pool. I am trying ok? I swear that I am 🥹
