Okay so photoshoots tire your girl out 😂 I fell asleep at 7p..
Added 2020-12-10 12:56:37 +0000 UTCOkay so photoshoots tire your girl out 😂 I fell asleep at 7pm last night and didn’t wake up until 5:30am! Actually, part of this is me having to recondition my brain and body. I’ve operated on high anxiety since I was a kid (it runs in my family). I didn’t know a life without constant, irrational, yet incomprehensible, fear and panic and of feeling in danger. When I tell you I was in a constant state of hyper awareness and fear for my life ever since I can remember, I truly mean it. And I always held guilt over why I felt that way—not being able to explain the feelings, and honestly? My childhood was amazing so the heaviness I carried all this time became like concrete. 32 years later and I’m training myself to be calm. That photoshoots are good. They don’t require fear and worry the week, three days, or two days before. Life is good. All is well. You are safe. You will be okay. I ask for you to be kind to yourself today. If you are experiencing fear or worry or panic, take a moment to breathe. Focus on the moment you are present in. Name things you can touch, smell, or hear. Breathe. 🖤
