Hi 🤍 for those of you who are new here: welcome!! I’ve gotte..
Added 2021-03-11 13:54:49 +0000 UTCHi 🤍 for those of you who are new here: welcome!! I’ve gotten some messages lately questioning why I haven’t been so active lately. I’m 32 years old and I’ve been living with my parents, who are both in their mid-60’s, since January 2020. My dad had emergency brain surgery last summer so it ended up being a good thing I was here to help. He’s better now, and back to work. My maternal grandma likes to remind me that I was “stunted” because of how anxious my mom is and how much I was held back and sheltered. At 32 I’m finally learning how to draw boundaries. But some days, no matter what I do, I cannot get away from my mom in this little house. She listens to my conversations through my bedroom door, she’s snuck and read my journals from when I was going through the depths of my divorce, she just...needs a hobby outside of trying to use me as her therapist. A role I’ve played for her since I can ever remember. It’s exhausting. No matter how many times I try to draw the line. Despite the fact that I tell her that I need to work, she follows me and keeps talking. Yesterday was one of those days. It’s frustrating. I love her and my father so much but I’m a grown woman. This has been so hard for me to process and come to terms with, and realizing how much this has affected me since my childhood. So yes, I want to be here to chat with you. Daily. Daily responses to messages. But I’m learning balance and boundaries and those things can take time. All I’m doing is constantly saving, saving, saving so I can have my own place. I know it’s within reach. I just have to keep going. 🤍 to everyone, all of you Planet Claireians. Thank you. I promise I’ll keep on being real with you. That’s what life is about. Honesty. Love. Compassion. I’ll be responding to messages today so stay tuned. And thank you again for your love and support.
