Hold onto your hats folks, this one is going to be a doozy. ..

Hold onto your hats folks, this one is going to be a doozy. I wanted to start by thanking you guys for all the support during this really hard time for me. I made a long statement about what’s going on in my life yesterday on my snap but I know that a lot of you guys don’t have that so now that I’ve “popped the bubble” so to speak, I think I’m mentally okay enough to make a statement here too. I normally keep this part of my life quiet for privacy reasons, but talking about it has already made me feel a lot better so I’m making an exception to my rule. I’ve mentioned on here over the last few weeks/months that I’ve been really struggling on my end. The TLDR is that I am freshly out of a very long and serious relationship. Like the “we’ve lived together for multiple years and we’re probably going to get married someday” kind of relationship. I go into a lot more detail about it on snap, but shits really really hard. I’m gutted. My life has been turned upside down and even the little things are excruciatingly difficult right now. It’s effected every aspect of my life and it has ESPECIALLY effected my ability to feel sexy and make content. One of the reasons I wanted to say something on here is that my emotional state has effected my content a lot. Notably, I shot the see through bra set when I was emotionally vulnerable and I’m not 100% sure I’m comfortable with what it shows anymore. I’m sorry that I hyped it up and said I would post it. I still might but I want to give myself a couple days to think about it and get in a better headspace before I decide anything. I’ll probably post some of the photos that I took on that trip today or tomorrow that I know I’m comfortable with to tide you over. Also, I’m sorry I haven’t been responding to messages. Please don’t think that I’m mad at you or anything, it’s just all too much right now. I just feel like I’m treading water all day long. I’ll be okay eventually but things are hard right now. I still really appreciate your kind words and support though. It means a lot to me. If you want to say something nice, I’d appreciate if you did it as a comment instead of a DM. I’m not ready to do DMs again yet and I’d hate to miss out on your kind words when I need them. I read all my comments every day so I’ll see it that way. Taking a break from DMs for a bit will be helpful for me right now, and I appreciate your understanding. Y’all mean a lot to me. Reading your kind words has helped tremendously. I’ve been sitting on this information for like 5-6 weeks in silence and it feels so good to tell someone about it. I feel like I just took a gasp of air after holding my breath for a long time. It’s still really hard and it’s going to be hard for a long time but I’m okay. I’ve got a great support system of people who I love. Thanks for being here, I’ll be back and better than ever soon, I promise.